A page from my diary...
21-04-2022
Since mid-march this year, I have been living at my native village. It's been of course a healthy lifestyle here for me but then few things have really put me off lately because of such small mindless talks and gossips. There were instances where I have met and interacted with lots of people and relatives. Unknowingly, they have helped me to observe lot of things about human behavior which I used to consider as exceptional cases with few people/relatives during my childhood days. But, now when I see those same people, my idea about them is getting more and more concretized because of the way they never helped you, words they spoke back then, still continue to say so and the expectations they have from us now.
I don't give a damn about how much any person earns, rather I find it more satisfying when I see people becoming more successful, self-dependent and achieving big self-goals in their lives. There were few incidences which changed my attitude towards money in my childhood itself. An instance that I remember vividly was one where my relatives were in a position to help us after seeing our terrible struggles that we were going through at that time while living in a small unfinished rented house in Jharkhand. I don't want to highlight about what happened exactly but to summarize in one line, they offered us some help initially but later they backed-off which somehow pushed our family into further more years of debts. That incidence shall never come out of my mind however hard I might try.
I learnt two big lessons that year. Firstly, never to promise or say anything, if you can't keep them or don't have the guts to stand by them, not even out of pity on someone's situation. And, the other one was that if you ever find yourself blessed enough to help someone in any possible ways, do it but without any fake promises.
Now, coming back to human nature where this write-up started with. Once you break the generational poverty after 3-4 decades of struggles, life full of debts, how easily those relatives come and say that they have so much of comforts, big homes, money flowing like anything and you hear them whispering that they don't do enough for us whenever you visit them on different occasions. How nicely they unseen all the pains, the struggles we have gone through for almost 4 decades, who never stood by us either emotionally or in any possible ways which they were capable of.
I want to keep it simple, I want myself neither running after money nor dying every single day because of less money, I just want to live a life debt-free and that is more than everything to me.
Never demean anyone. Everyone is going through their own struggles and also never forget about the past where you came from once you are successful!
Hope this shitty diary page will help you stay grounded! 😅
Until next time,
Take care everyone!
I don't know how it happened but it just happened. Today, for the first time I saw YOU in my dreams and the happiness of meeting YOU there is beyond my words stock. We were sitting at some place. We hugged each-other passionately without thinking about anyone else. Even, I saw few known faces out there. It felt so real that I could feel your presence as if we were in the physical world reality and not in the dreams!
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Today, I am really-really happy because I got to spend Ours time together for the first time ever without any physical world restrictions. We were completely enjoying each-other's company without looking at the clock, or even worrying about what society would think of us. You were sitting in my lap holding me tight. Just for a small moment, You were a bit conscious about the people thoughts but once I hugged You with all my heart, You melted in me after that warm hug. Then, we were walking around for a long time holding each-others' hands. We saw some goats on our way back home or some place (don't remember exactly where we were going) and gave those lovely animals something which were in my hand at that moment, as far as I remember, it was something like we were having grapes on our walk. I was so engrossed and so happy living my dream-life with You and never wanted to wake up again because You were mine forever, doesn't matter even if it was momentarily in my dreams!
What do you guys think about dreams? Do you believe that dreams have any connection with this physical realm of life. I have heard somewhere that when you remember the exact things that happened in your dreams then the universe is trying to give you some message.
Not sure but anyways the beautiful world of dreams always do fascinate me.
Would love to listen to your interesing dreams that you remember crystal clear. Do share your dreams here in the comment section.
Until next time keep dreaming!
Stay safe
P.S.- All words are imaginary.
Jana Gana Mana is the national anthem of India. It was originally composed as Bharoto Bhagyo Bidhata in Bengali by polymath Rabindranath Tagore. The first stanza of the song Bharoto Bhagyo Bidhata was adopted by the Constituent Assembly of India as the National Anthem on 24 January 1950. Wikipedia
Jan gan man adhinayak jay hey
Bharat bhagya vidhata
Punjab sindh gujarat maratha
Dravid utkal bang
Vindhya himanchal jamuna ganga
Uchchhal jaladhi tarang
Tab shubh naamey jagey
Tab shubh aashish mange
Gahe tab jay gatha
Jan gan mangal dayak jay hey
Bharat bhagya vidhata
Jay hey jay hey jay hey
Jay jay jay jay hey..
जन गण मन अधिनायक जय हे
भारत भाग्य विधाता!
पंजाब सिन्धु गुजरात मराठा
द्राविड़ उत्कल बंग
विन्ध्य हिमाचल यमुना गंगा
उच्छल जलधि तरंग
तव शुभ नामे जागे,
तव शुभ आशिष मागे,
गाहे तव जय गाथा।
जन गण मंगलदायक जय हे
भारत भाग्य विधाता!
जय हे, जय हे, जय हे,
जय जय जय जय हे।।
Namaste to all the good souls,
Here I will be sharing some of my sketches which are older than a decade, most of them were sketched during my school and college days.
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